I am so frustrated by my lack of finances and I’m apparent inability to get a part time/temporary job.  This is currently the biggest headache in my life.  I have bills that I am shortly not going to be able to pay because apparently I don’t interview or job hunt well or effectively.  This isn’t in my skill set.  This is not something I am good at doing.  I don’t think I was ever really taught how to do these things.  I feel horribly and frustratingly inadequate.

All I want is a little employment and a little bit of money, enough to pay my bills, buy my wedding shoes, whatever I need for the bachelorette party and my hotel room for the wedding and maybe go visit Erik in New York while he’s still living there.  That’s a lot to ask, but that’s what I need.