I am so frustrated by my lack of finances and I’m apparent inability to get a part time/temporary job.  This is currently the biggest headache in my life.  I have bills that I am shortly not going to be able to pay because apparently I don’t interview or job hunt well or effectively.  This isn’t in my skill set.  This is not something I am good at doing.  I don’t think I was ever really taught how to do these things.  I feel horribly and frustratingly inadequate.

All I want is a little employment and a little bit of money, enough to pay my bills, buy my wedding shoes, whatever I need for the bachelorette party and my hotel room for the wedding and maybe go visit Erik in New York while he’s still living there.  That’s a lot to ask, but that’s what I need.

I’m so bored.  I hate this.  I’m not motivated to do much of anything.  Today I was more active than other days (mostly because I was relatively alone, mostly because of Thanksgiving tomorrow), but I’m still bored.  I got almost everything I wanted to get done today by 2 pm.  I baked a pie, made chicken corn chowder and baked two loaves of pumpkin bread.  I’ve cleaned up after myself and am well on my way to having drunk a ridiculous amount of coffee.

It’s not even four pm. 

I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do with myself for the rest of the day.  The Internet, quite frankly, bores me.  I already watched Castle this week, I don’t feel motivated to write or edit and I’m not sure exactly what I want to do for the main part of my art project (so I’m putting that off).  There’s really no one I can call (the day before Thanksgiving) at a moments notice to hang out and my friend who is coming into town won’t be here until later tonight.

Guess I’ll just watch Glee.